Sometimes I wonder if I should have named this blog "tales of a late blooming entrepreneur".
I am of the belief that we are all learning, every day of our lives is an oppurtunity to learn something new. For the most part I think that is true regardless of who you are. After shopping for pools over the weekend I believe I now have a very good understanding of the differences in local pools and pool companies. Bottom line is the whole thing is expensive but a great investment for my family.
Other things are not so easy to learn and do take time. Things like, happiness is a choice, although my kids hear that everyday in morning announcements at school my son, is like a little old grumpy man. He is the most creative, compassionate, funny, most annoying person in my whole life. I get impatient waiting for him to see it in himself and get over his quirks. He is a beautiful person. Everyone is beautiful and deserves patience and love. :)
I remember when I was stuck, I bet some of the readers here do too. It took about 6 months and daily pounding to get into my head that I controlled my feelings, that things did not happen to me.
I used to find the people working with me very annoying. I say that with such love, becasue they all helped me to get where I am now. Each day I get closer to the life I want, the things I want in it and total acceptance to how things are.
Yesterday I posted a comment about abundance and how there is enough for everyone and you just need to believe it an accept it and someone said "even money?" I responded "yes and food too!".
I know may people are struggling financially and there is the belief of an economic break down. I personally think that we are believing in that more than believing in ourselves.
My family was hit by the adjustment and my husband was out of steady work for 2 years. We had to change some things. adjust. We did and then I quit my job at the same company. Unheard of at the time and when the company kept people working for fear of losing their job. Very unhealthy environment for me. Anyway I digress.
I will sum it up by saying this, did you know that the American public, ordinary people like you and me, collectively spent over 150 million dollars on 3 movies that came out this weekend?
Just think about that. The money is there. Happiness and food or love or whatever you want is too!
Peace and Love
TMC
Monday, May 30, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Join me on my see saw, won't you?
To me the most confusing thing about all the woo woo stuff I am into, is that I am not sure I truly believe in an after life. I believe that energy never dies and that once the spark is gone your energy goes on to do other things, but I cannot say for sure if I think we reincarnate or come back as trees or come back at all.
You know when you go under for surgery, sometimes I think that is what death is like except they do not wake you up again. Unconscious, other times I think that we go somewhere, not as people with people experiences but as energy with energy experiences.
Now that being said,from my head my heart says:
I believe in angels and passed on loved ones communicating with you. I also believe that many of us have been here before and carry some residual fears or missions to carry out. I believe that love is a powerful energy that even if unconscious brings us together, we may just not know it....
I am laughing now at me, and I am because I get messages for people and from people. I get them all the time. Sometimes I pass them on sometimes I do not. Sometimes I doubt they are from the other side and think it is residual energy that someone carries in their aura but I also believe in intelligent haunting. There have been times when a butterfly has led me to a graveside, when I was not sure which one it was.
I think all this seesaw waffling is what often holds me back from believing in my skill. Yet, I also think that is what makes my skills more believable. A healthy dose of skepticism never hurt anyone....or has it?
I find it very funny when my young male friends come to me when I am in the shower. No, I do not see them and they do not see me, but I think of a funny story or a memory or get a message in my mind. Today was one for a friends son, the message was to the effect of, (and I will not direct quote because it is more the feeling than the words)
Totally what I would expect the dad to tell his son. Especially because I sensed he is concerned.
So does that make it real? I believe so, for the fact that there was no reason for me to be thinking of them in the shower. I just had surgery and I was concerned about my surgical site not hearing a message from an old friend. Heck I had just finished taking off and fixing a door knob, these two were the farthest from my mind.
Anyway, I am publicly acknowledging this message. It happened, I got it, and I am passing it on, well in a way, not directly to the son as he is a minor but to my blog readers as I step out farther into who I really am.
Can I read people on command? don't know, I have never tried, well that is not true either, I have tried and I have done it, but there was always just one acknowledgement and then the pressure of the persons curiosity and my fear would shut me down. Not sure that is the route I want to go. I know it is where the money is, but I find private healing sessions are a much better place to share this type of information. It is of a healing nature after all. People come for a healing, some stress relief and they may leave with a nugget of love from days gone by, they may not, but they leave feeling better just the same.
Usually things come to me when I am performing a Reiki session or doing a reading, sometimes days later, in the way of a dream, a story, or a song. I know when they happen and sometimes I also know when people I have not spoken to in years are thinking of me. I cannot explain it. I sometimes will try to verify it and sometimes I just know and it warms my heart.
I know we all have these abilities some are just better at tapping into them than others. I have no doubt of what I am capable of.
Although I seem to waffle to and fro I do know that it is time to surrender to who I am and what I do, so that I can find the best way to help people.
Sometimes the advise I give or the answers to questions are not even my words at all, they are the words of someone a client has lost, a guide or some other message that comes through me and I am not always aware of thinking before I speak, but a lot of times they will say "my mom used to say that" or "that reminds me of what my dad used to tell me" and I am sitting there thinking "that was obviously them because I do not speak like that".
As I sit here writing this I have to wonder if I will ever post it. I have a slew of unposted blog entries in my drafts folder. Many have not been posted for fear and wondering what people would think or if it is good for business.
Also to show that I work from a place of knowing but often, doubting what I know, that is in my design it is me, but I do not doubt me, not for one second.
I have many skills and a lot of information to share and a lot of things to show others. I plan to find the best way to do this and get it done.
I feel something big is coming and it is coming soon and I love all the support you give as I walk into whatever it may be.
Much love to all!
You know when you go under for surgery, sometimes I think that is what death is like except they do not wake you up again. Unconscious, other times I think that we go somewhere, not as people with people experiences but as energy with energy experiences.
Now that being said,from my head my heart says:
I believe in angels and passed on loved ones communicating with you. I also believe that many of us have been here before and carry some residual fears or missions to carry out. I believe that love is a powerful energy that even if unconscious brings us together, we may just not know it....
I am laughing now at me, and I am because I get messages for people and from people. I get them all the time. Sometimes I pass them on sometimes I do not. Sometimes I doubt they are from the other side and think it is residual energy that someone carries in their aura but I also believe in intelligent haunting. There have been times when a butterfly has led me to a graveside, when I was not sure which one it was.
I think all this seesaw waffling is what often holds me back from believing in my skill. Yet, I also think that is what makes my skills more believable. A healthy dose of skepticism never hurt anyone....or has it?
I find it very funny when my young male friends come to me when I am in the shower. No, I do not see them and they do not see me, but I think of a funny story or a memory or get a message in my mind. Today was one for a friends son, the message was to the effect of, (and I will not direct quote because it is more the feeling than the words)
Don't always let everyone know what you are doing or thinking, if you are crazy or sane, leave a sense of mystery, that is what will draw people to you they will want to know, they may never find out.
Be mysterious.
So does that make it real? I believe so, for the fact that there was no reason for me to be thinking of them in the shower. I just had surgery and I was concerned about my surgical site not hearing a message from an old friend. Heck I had just finished taking off and fixing a door knob, these two were the farthest from my mind.
Anyway, I am publicly acknowledging this message. It happened, I got it, and I am passing it on, well in a way, not directly to the son as he is a minor but to my blog readers as I step out farther into who I really am.
Can I read people on command? don't know, I have never tried, well that is not true either, I have tried and I have done it, but there was always just one acknowledgement and then the pressure of the persons curiosity and my fear would shut me down. Not sure that is the route I want to go. I know it is where the money is, but I find private healing sessions are a much better place to share this type of information. It is of a healing nature after all. People come for a healing, some stress relief and they may leave with a nugget of love from days gone by, they may not, but they leave feeling better just the same.
Usually things come to me when I am performing a Reiki session or doing a reading, sometimes days later, in the way of a dream, a story, or a song. I know when they happen and sometimes I also know when people I have not spoken to in years are thinking of me. I cannot explain it. I sometimes will try to verify it and sometimes I just know and it warms my heart.
I know we all have these abilities some are just better at tapping into them than others. I have no doubt of what I am capable of.
Although I seem to waffle to and fro I do know that it is time to surrender to who I am and what I do, so that I can find the best way to help people.
Sometimes the advise I give or the answers to questions are not even my words at all, they are the words of someone a client has lost, a guide or some other message that comes through me and I am not always aware of thinking before I speak, but a lot of times they will say "my mom used to say that" or "that reminds me of what my dad used to tell me" and I am sitting there thinking "that was obviously them because I do not speak like that".
As I sit here writing this I have to wonder if I will ever post it. I have a slew of unposted blog entries in my drafts folder. Many have not been posted for fear and wondering what people would think or if it is good for business.
Also to show that I work from a place of knowing but often, doubting what I know, that is in my design it is me, but I do not doubt me, not for one second.
I have many skills and a lot of information to share and a lot of things to show others. I plan to find the best way to do this and get it done.
I feel something big is coming and it is coming soon and I love all the support you give as I walk into whatever it may be.
Much love to all!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Remembering Nora
I am not sure I have told many people, but I have been taking the Hospice Volunteer Training course.
Last night we watched a remarkable story about a remarkable woman. Nora Lenihan. She allowed cameras to follow her through her battle with breast cancer. She was 32 when she first was diagnosed and went into remission, she lost her mother to the same disease when she was 37 and shortly after was told hers returned and spread, she died at 39. The Boston Globe did an article about her as well. The documentary that followed her for 299 days of life. She had roots in RI and lived for many years in Boston. The Boston Globe article was June 23,1996.
Today is the anniversary of her death. The instructor didn't realize that when she planned the class and while we were discussing the documentary we were treated with the most beautiful sunset we had seen since we started classes weeks ago.
As all deaths go, I do not want her illness to define her but the way she lived.
Something she spoke of that really got to me was, knowing that she was dying took away her blissful ignorance. She said we as humans get up everyday and plan the day, the week, the month, the years to come, without ever thinking it may be our last day. We are blissfully ignorant.
Periodically the narrator would say, today is day 165, Nora does not know how much time she has left.
She met and lost over 15 women who were in her support groups, it was also repeated throughout the movie by her friends that she was more alive than she had ever been in this part of her journey. It was just an amazing story.
I am so grateful to have been able to see it. I cannot find a copy for the life of me. I would love to replace my instructors VHS tape with a DVD, she shows it every training session.
I think when I started writing this entry this morning I was going somewhere in sharing this, but now it seems I cannot remember and perhaps it is better because today I just want to share Nora's name and say she was remarkable.
I am guessing this seems like a really depressing post. To some it may be and to some it may drudge up many other things and for that I apologize.
I guess I just wanted to share her courage and story with you all and send hugs to her family. I wish I could find a copy of her story online. If I do I will add it later.
Last night we watched a remarkable story about a remarkable woman. Nora Lenihan. She allowed cameras to follow her through her battle with breast cancer. She was 32 when she first was diagnosed and went into remission, she lost her mother to the same disease when she was 37 and shortly after was told hers returned and spread, she died at 39. The Boston Globe did an article about her as well. The documentary that followed her for 299 days of life. She had roots in RI and lived for many years in Boston. The Boston Globe article was June 23,1996.
Today is the anniversary of her death. The instructor didn't realize that when she planned the class and while we were discussing the documentary we were treated with the most beautiful sunset we had seen since we started classes weeks ago.
As all deaths go, I do not want her illness to define her but the way she lived.
Something she spoke of that really got to me was, knowing that she was dying took away her blissful ignorance. She said we as humans get up everyday and plan the day, the week, the month, the years to come, without ever thinking it may be our last day. We are blissfully ignorant.
Periodically the narrator would say, today is day 165, Nora does not know how much time she has left.
She met and lost over 15 women who were in her support groups, it was also repeated throughout the movie by her friends that she was more alive than she had ever been in this part of her journey. It was just an amazing story.
I am so grateful to have been able to see it. I cannot find a copy for the life of me. I would love to replace my instructors VHS tape with a DVD, she shows it every training session.
I think when I started writing this entry this morning I was going somewhere in sharing this, but now it seems I cannot remember and perhaps it is better because today I just want to share Nora's name and say she was remarkable.
I am guessing this seems like a really depressing post. To some it may be and to some it may drudge up many other things and for that I apologize.
I guess I just wanted to share her courage and story with you all and send hugs to her family. I wish I could find a copy of her story online. If I do I will add it later.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
What if......
A memory popped into my head last night and I was almost forced to get up and write it. I won that battle but I still feel it needs to go here.
I was once told "I pulled up outside your apartment door that night, I decided if you opened the door I would come in and we could be together, you didn't so I left." I remember thinking how funny that was, becasue I was inside my apartment wondering what the car wanted outside finding it strage.
It is likely that, that relationship would have been strained from the get go. As much as we thought we wanted it, it was not meant to be. It was really a situation I intentionally created to protect myself from something else. That story will wait for another day.
Today's story is about well I am not really sure what it is about. Perception, chance, a strange attempt at romance.......maybe sitting in the car would have worked if he played the Cranberries really loud, or yelled my name, who's to say.
I think I have been venturing into that dark land of "what if's" lately, and wondering how my life and the health of myself and others would be a bit different if things had been different. I try not to stay in the "what if's" too much because it is really not a productive place to be, but in my attempt to clear it all. I am allowing short trips. What is making it much better than in the past is I am finding a positive result for each senerio. I have amazed myself with how many I have found. It is not always easy but when I am prompted I get it done.
I believe that each experience we have regardless of how devastating can bring you soo much, if you are only able or willing to see it. In some cases that realization is delayed as it is meant to be. Never doubt that the pain or emotions you feel around something is wrong. Just try to remember there are great lessons from the darkest of times and those lessons propel us into the next great thing.
Also try not to carry that raw pain or anger with you for years at a time. (I laugh as I write that line)
I was talking to an amazing woman last night and we were discussing how you always have a fear or a dread of the worst thing that can happen in your life, then it happens and you are still here and you really need to stop and decide what you are going to do with it.
Then another woman in the group reminded us to "never should on yourself".
I find it really cool that a volunteer opportunity with an attached 9 week training course, can truly support the clearing work I am doing. In fact there have been many classes or books I have read that let me know all this work is to be happening right now, and even though sometimes I scold myself for still having theses bits and pieces or huge chunks of stuff that I have not allowed myself to let go of, it is all in the time it was meant to be done in.
When I look at what I have written I really see clearly that how we look at something and if we look at it as it is without judgement, events and memories just are what they are. When we remove the "what if's" and "shoulds" we are allowed to just see what was.
The challenge this week is to release judgement, try it. Do not judge people, ideas, plans, or words. Stop yourself each time you label something with a judgement.
Feel free to let me know how you made out!
I was once told "I pulled up outside your apartment door that night, I decided if you opened the door I would come in and we could be together, you didn't so I left." I remember thinking how funny that was, becasue I was inside my apartment wondering what the car wanted outside finding it strage.
It is likely that, that relationship would have been strained from the get go. As much as we thought we wanted it, it was not meant to be. It was really a situation I intentionally created to protect myself from something else. That story will wait for another day.
Today's story is about well I am not really sure what it is about. Perception, chance, a strange attempt at romance.......maybe sitting in the car would have worked if he played the Cranberries really loud, or yelled my name, who's to say.
I think I have been venturing into that dark land of "what if's" lately, and wondering how my life and the health of myself and others would be a bit different if things had been different. I try not to stay in the "what if's" too much because it is really not a productive place to be, but in my attempt to clear it all. I am allowing short trips. What is making it much better than in the past is I am finding a positive result for each senerio. I have amazed myself with how many I have found. It is not always easy but when I am prompted I get it done.
I believe that each experience we have regardless of how devastating can bring you soo much, if you are only able or willing to see it. In some cases that realization is delayed as it is meant to be. Never doubt that the pain or emotions you feel around something is wrong. Just try to remember there are great lessons from the darkest of times and those lessons propel us into the next great thing.
Also try not to carry that raw pain or anger with you for years at a time. (I laugh as I write that line)
I was talking to an amazing woman last night and we were discussing how you always have a fear or a dread of the worst thing that can happen in your life, then it happens and you are still here and you really need to stop and decide what you are going to do with it.
Then another woman in the group reminded us to "never should on yourself".
I find it really cool that a volunteer opportunity with an attached 9 week training course, can truly support the clearing work I am doing. In fact there have been many classes or books I have read that let me know all this work is to be happening right now, and even though sometimes I scold myself for still having theses bits and pieces or huge chunks of stuff that I have not allowed myself to let go of, it is all in the time it was meant to be done in.
When I look at what I have written I really see clearly that how we look at something and if we look at it as it is without judgement, events and memories just are what they are. When we remove the "what if's" and "shoulds" we are allowed to just see what was.
The challenge this week is to release judgement, try it. Do not judge people, ideas, plans, or words. Stop yourself each time you label something with a judgement.
Feel free to let me know how you made out!
Friday, April 22, 2011
What is wrong with today, right now?
I really need to find a way to get things recorded while I am in my car or in the shower, I have come up with some great ideas to write about but by the time I am dried off the ideas are jumbled and do not sound as smooth as they did in my head.
After deciding not to return to the school I was working at, and focusing on my family and my business, I decided to grab a part time job, just a few hours a week like 10-15. I have to say the search was a bit harder than I had imagined. Places like pet stores want people to work 30 hour shifts for 8 hours a day. I didn't want that. I wanted a few hours a day a few days a week, because my main concern is my business.
I did notice however that living my dream added some challenges. The most concerning to me, was not money, I have grown to have a very different relationship with money. Rather than having it and wanting more, or not having it and wanting more, I have learned to appreciate each penny I have, which is tough as I used to throw them away regularly while cleaning. What challenged me most was not wearing sweat pants. Working from home allows me to sit in sweatpants 24/7. Although they are nice and not ratty and some are yoga pants. I missed getting dressed in real clothes. Comfort is a great things. Love my comfortable pants, but there is something to be said for getting up and putting on nice clothes doing your hair and going somewhere. Even if the minute you return home you change back into your comfortable clothes.
It could be argued that I could easily do that to do a Reiki treatment, and sometimes I did, but I decided I needed something more regular.
The other challenge was sleeping, I have never been a great night sleeper and do get much of my better rest in the morning, but I was starting to feel like time is being wasted sleeping. If I could use that same block of time and make money, it could be beneficial. Also I have the tendency to become quite the hermit, and be very happy that way, but in order to network and thrive on many levels, I decided I might need to leave the house.
I still find it funny that I have to come up with all these reasons to get a part-time job, almost as funny as when I went on my pet store interview and they wanted 8 hours a day 3 or 4 days a week! I was appalled. Nothing was as funny to me as saying to my husband "I am sorry I just cannot work an 8 hour shift" I know I stunned him as he was quiet and he is never quiet, even when he should stop talking his thoughts fly out, so silence was hysterical to me!
Sooo the decision was made I was going to look for some real part time work. That I could do effortlessly as my ankle is still being a pest (I know I have more to learn from it before it goes back to normal) I got a call the other day from a place I had submitted a resume to a while back. It is an Admin position for 12 hours a week for a state/town governed and regulated agency. I interviewed on Wednesday and start next Wednesday. I am excited. It is just what I wanted, there is not room or expectancy for advancement and I may never see a raise but I will be learning something new and utilize ALL of my skills, and have the potential to help people who really need and want to be helped. The hours are perfect and will still allow for beach days in the summer as well as clients and classes I will be teaching.
So on to why I am really writing. This time when I discussed the job with my husband, he made some comments about moving up, getting more hours, posting to bigger positions. It really made me think.
When I worked in corporate it was all about goals and moving forward and getting higher etc. I drove many a boss nuts with my desire to not set goals and just be where I was. I lost that battle usually and was always moved up with responsibility or job level, that I always fulfilled and then some. They felt that I needed to be pushed that I was being lazy, same things I used to hear in High School.
To my dismay my goal of just being there was not working. I think that is why my goal to leave that company actually my long term goal of "retiring in 5 years" only took 4 or less. Sometimes moving up the corporate ladder just isn't what people want no matter how good they are at it. I know crazy huh? Walking away from what could have turned into an even bigger role and even more money. LOL. I see why my husband often shakes his head at me, but it was not my dream.
Anyway sometimes being where I am and enjoying it is better.
I can recall a few major relationships in my life that I missed out on because I was more focused on the next 10 steps rather than enjoying the step I was on. Even when my kids were small I was always looking to the next development and not really enjoying the one they were at for very long. I can honestly say, I do that differently now, I can even appreciate days like today when I need to take an extended time out from their bickering and other foolishness.
soo interested in moving quickly ahead to the next thing that may or may not be there? or even worse another thing I have been doing, sitting in your head remembering things that you have learned to accept but still try and tear apart for a lesson as to why it occurred. Yes what is wrong with today, right now?
As I sit here in silence (well besides my squawking parrot) and hear nothing else but my kids in their rooms busing themselves until mom has chilled out, and I have to say nothing. To me nothing is wrong with today and right now and I am blessed to be at the point where I can just sit her silently and enjoy it.
What makes me laugh even more is when asked about my thoughts of the job just being what it is, with few benefits in the way of vacations etc, and really no opportunity for moving up, but the overall importance of the position and her desire to train someone who is honest and will really stay. I told the sweatpants story.
I love just being me!
After deciding not to return to the school I was working at, and focusing on my family and my business, I decided to grab a part time job, just a few hours a week like 10-15. I have to say the search was a bit harder than I had imagined. Places like pet stores want people to work 30 hour shifts for 8 hours a day. I didn't want that. I wanted a few hours a day a few days a week, because my main concern is my business.
I did notice however that living my dream added some challenges. The most concerning to me, was not money, I have grown to have a very different relationship with money. Rather than having it and wanting more, or not having it and wanting more, I have learned to appreciate each penny I have, which is tough as I used to throw them away regularly while cleaning. What challenged me most was not wearing sweat pants. Working from home allows me to sit in sweatpants 24/7. Although they are nice and not ratty and some are yoga pants. I missed getting dressed in real clothes. Comfort is a great things. Love my comfortable pants, but there is something to be said for getting up and putting on nice clothes doing your hair and going somewhere. Even if the minute you return home you change back into your comfortable clothes.
It could be argued that I could easily do that to do a Reiki treatment, and sometimes I did, but I decided I needed something more regular.
The other challenge was sleeping, I have never been a great night sleeper and do get much of my better rest in the morning, but I was starting to feel like time is being wasted sleeping. If I could use that same block of time and make money, it could be beneficial. Also I have the tendency to become quite the hermit, and be very happy that way, but in order to network and thrive on many levels, I decided I might need to leave the house.
I still find it funny that I have to come up with all these reasons to get a part-time job, almost as funny as when I went on my pet store interview and they wanted 8 hours a day 3 or 4 days a week! I was appalled. Nothing was as funny to me as saying to my husband "I am sorry I just cannot work an 8 hour shift" I know I stunned him as he was quiet and he is never quiet, even when he should stop talking his thoughts fly out, so silence was hysterical to me!
Sooo the decision was made I was going to look for some real part time work. That I could do effortlessly as my ankle is still being a pest (I know I have more to learn from it before it goes back to normal) I got a call the other day from a place I had submitted a resume to a while back. It is an Admin position for 12 hours a week for a state/town governed and regulated agency. I interviewed on Wednesday and start next Wednesday. I am excited. It is just what I wanted, there is not room or expectancy for advancement and I may never see a raise but I will be learning something new and utilize ALL of my skills, and have the potential to help people who really need and want to be helped. The hours are perfect and will still allow for beach days in the summer as well as clients and classes I will be teaching.
So on to why I am really writing. This time when I discussed the job with my husband, he made some comments about moving up, getting more hours, posting to bigger positions. It really made me think.
When I worked in corporate it was all about goals and moving forward and getting higher etc. I drove many a boss nuts with my desire to not set goals and just be where I was. I lost that battle usually and was always moved up with responsibility or job level, that I always fulfilled and then some. They felt that I needed to be pushed that I was being lazy, same things I used to hear in High School.
To my dismay my goal of just being there was not working. I think that is why my goal to leave that company actually my long term goal of "retiring in 5 years" only took 4 or less. Sometimes moving up the corporate ladder just isn't what people want no matter how good they are at it. I know crazy huh? Walking away from what could have turned into an even bigger role and even more money. LOL. I see why my husband often shakes his head at me, but it was not my dream.
Anyway sometimes being where I am and enjoying it is better.
I can recall a few major relationships in my life that I missed out on because I was more focused on the next 10 steps rather than enjoying the step I was on. Even when my kids were small I was always looking to the next development and not really enjoying the one they were at for very long. I can honestly say, I do that differently now, I can even appreciate days like today when I need to take an extended time out from their bickering and other foolishness.
soo interested in moving quickly ahead to the next thing that may or may not be there? or even worse another thing I have been doing, sitting in your head remembering things that you have learned to accept but still try and tear apart for a lesson as to why it occurred. Yes what is wrong with today, right now?
As I sit here in silence (well besides my squawking parrot) and hear nothing else but my kids in their rooms busing themselves until mom has chilled out, and I have to say nothing. To me nothing is wrong with today and right now and I am blessed to be at the point where I can just sit her silently and enjoy it.
What makes me laugh even more is when asked about my thoughts of the job just being what it is, with few benefits in the way of vacations etc, and really no opportunity for moving up, but the overall importance of the position and her desire to train someone who is honest and will really stay. I told the sweatpants story.
I love just being me!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
The Naked Reiki Master
HA! Got your attention didn't I!?!?! Now let me explain what this is all about.
When I was in my 20's, I used to want to write a book called a look (or was it a walk) inside my mind. (Funny I cannot remember.) It was going to be a collection of all of the poetry I had written.
I found as I shared them with people, they couldn't really grasp what I was saying. I have an interesting past full of losses, disappointments, and many overshadowed blessings, that at 24, not many had been through. Heck some of the people that I shared with who were in their 50's hadn't been through it. So I decided to put it aside. I decided people were not ready for that mind.
I have been thinking a lot lately about what I can do to express my Energy Sessions in one word, that people can understand and be interested in. I came up with "The Naked Reiki Master" It made me laugh thinking about the calls I would receive asking about my services.
Really as I started to think about it more, how what people like most about me and what I like most about me, is that I am me.
Funny as I was having these thoughts I was putting on my makeup (which as many know, beyond eyeliner I really do not like). I am always happy when I am me, it is when I am trying not to be me that I become unhappy, angry, or frustrated and stuck. I have been reminded lately of a few different times where I was trying to be something I wasn't, and they are the most trying and hurtful and biggest learning experiences in my life. I can honestly say I am still learning the lessons now. Some 15 plus years later.
I am just me, and I will always just be me and if me gains a few pounds or gets a big huge zit, I am still me and the me is the same one I put to bed at night and the same one that gets up in the morning. No facades or need to be anyone else except me. No need for botox or liposuction, not even the tummy tuck I have often thought about. For now I feel it is really important just to be me.
I share this today and wonder, maybe it is the same for you. As I stood there staring at myself in the mirror today, I noticed my cute little dimple is looking more like a wrinkle. I noticed it a week ago and it bothered me, now I see it differently as it is a part of me, and I am beautiful and so are you.
I thought maybe the time is now that a walk inside the mind of Tammy can really help people. I thought that maybe the time is now to become vulnerable and just put myself out there as I am, and do what it is that I do and just continue being me.
So I posted the picture above and a couple others on my FB page that my daughter took of me this sunny Sunday morning, as is, as a reminder to me that I am me and who better to be.
Bright Blessings to you all!
When I was in my 20's, I used to want to write a book called a look (or was it a walk) inside my mind. (Funny I cannot remember.) It was going to be a collection of all of the poetry I had written.
I found as I shared them with people, they couldn't really grasp what I was saying. I have an interesting past full of losses, disappointments, and many overshadowed blessings, that at 24, not many had been through. Heck some of the people that I shared with who were in their 50's hadn't been through it. So I decided to put it aside. I decided people were not ready for that mind.
I have been thinking a lot lately about what I can do to express my Energy Sessions in one word, that people can understand and be interested in. I came up with "The Naked Reiki Master" It made me laugh thinking about the calls I would receive asking about my services.
Really as I started to think about it more, how what people like most about me and what I like most about me, is that I am me.
Funny as I was having these thoughts I was putting on my makeup (which as many know, beyond eyeliner I really do not like). I am always happy when I am me, it is when I am trying not to be me that I become unhappy, angry, or frustrated and stuck. I have been reminded lately of a few different times where I was trying to be something I wasn't, and they are the most trying and hurtful and biggest learning experiences in my life. I can honestly say I am still learning the lessons now. Some 15 plus years later.
I am just me, and I will always just be me and if me gains a few pounds or gets a big huge zit, I am still me and the me is the same one I put to bed at night and the same one that gets up in the morning. No facades or need to be anyone else except me. No need for botox or liposuction, not even the tummy tuck I have often thought about. For now I feel it is really important just to be me.
I share this today and wonder, maybe it is the same for you. As I stood there staring at myself in the mirror today, I noticed my cute little dimple is looking more like a wrinkle. I noticed it a week ago and it bothered me, now I see it differently as it is a part of me, and I am beautiful and so are you.
I thought maybe the time is now that a walk inside the mind of Tammy can really help people. I thought that maybe the time is now to become vulnerable and just put myself out there as I am, and do what it is that I do and just continue being me.
So I posted the picture above and a couple others on my FB page that my daughter took of me this sunny Sunday morning, as is, as a reminder to me that I am me and who better to be.
Bright Blessings to you all!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Sometimes my blog will spread my love of others.....
I am just beginning to write a testimonial on a series of classes I have taken recently with Asha Ramakrishna of AshaStories.com. I want to try and express what her classes have given me and will continue to give me as they evolve. While doing this I had the shove to share this information with all of my FB pals, as I know there are many of you out there who can benefit from what she has to say.
Before I begin I have to say: I do not stand up and shout about too many of the teachers, I have had, as I am a tough critic, there are probably only 6 of them that I will stand behind and Asha has been added to that list. She is kind, caring, professional, authentic, and beautiful. I will also say without doubt that the minute you meet her you will see the light she is here to share with us all. I just love her!
As women, I think we can all relate to times when we have tried to compare ourselves to someone else, think we are not good enough, that our way is not best, have put parts of us away to please others, or need permission to be ourselves.
I know a lot of people I talk to value and envy the ability they see others have in which they are able to be themselves and stand by their beliefs. Asha teaches what she was given as the Sacred Chalice Principles. Each one of the seven principles stands alone strongly and yet stands as strongly as part of the group.
She has taught me that in a sisterhood there is no room for competition or comparing ourselves to other people. There are enough teachers and students for everyone and there does not have to be that masculine beat down of other people to get who is right for us. This can translate into so many areas in our lives.
Regardless of the situation we have all been in conversations with others of why we are better than another woman in business or relationships, or motherhood. There always seems to be times when we are trying to compare ourselves to someone else or to an ideal we hold of someone else, while ignoring ourselves and not paying respect to who we are, believing in who we are, and knowing that we are enough.
We often sit in a state of panic and worry in relation to others and lose our grasp on what role the divine feminine energy plays in our life.
The Sacred Chalice Principles are amazing,freeing, and gratifying. They bring peace and flexibility to what is described as very masculine qualities that we all have.
The principles truly bring softness to the masculine energy many of us portray in life, whether it be as a single mother or a business woman.
We do not need to talk about, cut down, or bring down other women that we perceive as a threat to us. There is enough work, enough love, enough men, and enough energy for us all.
We do not have to cut people out as a result of fear. I am not saying bad things do not happen but I am encouraging and challenging you to stop the role you may play in them.
If you are willing to take a chance and learn something about yourself, your nature, and what you can do to bring more feminine energy into your life, then Asha is truly a teacher for you.
She offers classes in Somerville, retreats all over Massachusetts, as well as teleclasses.
To learn more about The Sacred Chalice Prinicples here
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